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Struggling through life as much as the next young girl in her early twenties. I have a lot of love for my city, Nashville. I like traveling, late night phone calls, and eating.

Monday, February 17, 2014


Ahh, I made a post saying this would be a personal blog, but I find myself wanting to do more beauty reviews. 

I posted one personal blog, but it just felt weird to me, so I immediately put the post on private because I felt ashamed to put my feelings on the internet. I never found myself wanting to make another personal blog post again--maybe I'm just not the type to eloquently describe my thoughts.

If I can find the time, I'll definitely go back to reviews. It's a real hobby of mine.


Friday, September 13, 2013


Well, here it goes. My first real post of this "personal" blog.

So I'm a junior, I'm now in my twenties, and I couldn't be more frightened. As a young adult in college, I have experienced the glory and newness of freshman year, the downturn of the sophomore slump, and now it's my third year here. It all happened right before my eyes. I've been in school for almost a month now, and I just realized--things are actually starting to get pretty serious. Now is when I start taking more classes that focus on my potential career field, and I  really have to think about what I want to do when I am done with school. It just seems like a lot is coming towards me right now.

I'm still young, but I realize that I am getting to that age where my relationships with people start to matter because the friends I make now may possibly be ones that I have for the rest of my life. I am now past that point of just wanting to get to know a lot of people so I can look like I'm accepted in a community. And while having acquaintances to catch up with are wonderful, I find myself desiring something more. I want to make real connections with people. I may not be able to define exactly what I mean by a "real connection", but I just know that if I'm at least acquainted with someone, I will always have a desire to get to know them better, past a "How have you been?" basis. I do feel confident in myself when it comes to my friendships, though. It seems I've maintained quite a few friendships that will seemingly last me for years to come, and I couldn't be happier about that.

Although I'd like to have serious friendships, I'm still not exactly sure I'd like to have a serious relationship. I mean, I do have those typical girly fantasies of finding the one and spending a lifetime with that man, but I have absolutely no idea how I'll ever get there. I know I shouldn't be worried about it since I have plenty of time, but it's just something I want, and I can't help but to think about it. I think subconsciously, I view guys with the perspective of how I believe they will be in the future, which is a terrible thing for me to do. I should be concerned with the present, right?

And in the present time, as a young woman in her early twenties, I shouldn't worry about being so serious at this point. I know that. So here I am now, dating someone--just one person and no one else--untitled, for the sake of "just dating". We see each other from time to time, talk every so often, but neither of us are committed to each other, although we don't see anyone else. And I think if we suddenly decided to see another person, the other person would be unhappy about it. But we aren't "boyfriend/girlfriend". We connect on an emotional level and confide in each other about certain things, but if anyone asks if we're actually together, we'd both say no. I usually don't do things like this because I'm the type of person who likes straightforward situations; either you're in it or you're out. But I keep reminding myself that I'm still young--why should I get so caught up in these things?

I've always thought that this dating was fine because I thought it'd eventually lead somewhere, but he recently told me that he intends to stay exactly where we are for the next four years (his time in school). However, if he wanted a girlfriend, I'd be perfect for it. For some reason, I wasn't surprised by this statement, but at the same time, I didn't know how to feel about it. Like I said, I was fine with where we were, but should I keep putting my efforts and my heart into something/someone if I know it won't go anywhere for a long time? Is it worth my patience? And will this person realize or care that I stay around? And what if it goes nowhere after all that time? Would all of the efforts I put in go to waste? Or should I just remember that I'm still young, and that I shouldn't be worried about it, and just keep going with it?
These and ten thousand other questions circle my head. Part of me wants to keep going, be careless, and enjoy the wonderful thing we have now. But then my bigger-picture desires tell me otherwise.

The relationships I make now will have an effect on my future.

Do what makes you happy now.

And you know what? I realize I'm the type of person who does things wholeheartedly. I'm happy now. I'm happy with my friends, and I'm happy with life. Sometimes I think that I over-think everything, although I'm not wrong to question what is happening in my life.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

different directions.

So recently, I started a blog with my cousin Lisa, and we have been doing beauty/lifestyle related posts together in hopes that we can post more often. It's hard to constantly review things when you're living on a college budget, you know? I think it'll be good to see a different perspective on reviews. Plus, she lives in Los Angeles, so she'll probably have a lot of interesting things to talk about as well. Here's the link:


As for this blog? I'm thinking I will take this blog in more of a personal direction. Just to have an outlet to talk about things. I feel like this will be a good way to connect with those who read this blog, although I know I don't have any regular followers. But now that I don't have to physically prepare every single post, I can publish things more often.

A lot of things have been on my mind lately, and honestly, I need something like this to help me organize my thoughts. Hopefully you find me interesting, but if you don't, I'll blog anyway.

But yes, from now on, all beauty related posts will be directed to the blog linked above.


Sunday, June 2, 2013

The Body Shop Oil-Free Balancing Foundation Review

So I received this foundation last week and I'd like to give my honest review on it.

This foundation is oil-free with a matte finish, said to be suitable for oily skin types.

I got the shade 04, suitable for light/medium skin tones.

This is a heavy fresh swatch for reference next to Chanel Vita Lumiere Aqua in Beige 40. TBS is on the top and Chanel VLA is on the bottom.

This is after the heavy swatch set a little bit. Clearly, they both oxidize. And actually, the Chanel Beige 40 is a bit dark for me. It was matched for me last summer when I was darker, so The Body Shop foundation in 04 is actually a great match for me at the moment.

Here I am, makeup-less. As you can see, there is redness around the nose, and I have some red spots on my cheeks.

After trial and error, I found that the best way to apply this foundation is with a damp sponge. This is after one pump of foundation was blended evenly across my face. As you can see, the redness around my nose is gone.

The small pimples on my cheek have also been concealed, however I'm not sure that you can tell, but it has clung to areas around my nose. I also found that this foundation dries down to matte, but not SUPER matte finish. It also has a tendency to cling to each and every dry spot on your face, which is why I went for the damp sponge application when I applied the foundation.

As long as you aren't looking super up close to my face, it actually leaves a very nice, natural finish. It doesn't look cakey overall. This is after I had applied my eye makeup, so there is no setting powder, blush, or bronzer.

I tested it out with flash photography. This foundation has SPF 15 so I was curious to see if it'd flashback or not. And the flashback effect is ever so slight, but my face looks a tad bit light. Also, the light is bouncing off my cheeks, so it doesn't look matte in flash photography.

And how did it wear throughout the day? I'm VERY oily, and although this foundation is oil-free, it did not prevent my face from becoming as oily as it usually is. I had to blot twice. Something I also noticed is that this foundation is easily transferrable, meaning it will probably wipe off on your boyfriend's shirt when you snuggle your face in his white shirt--or any colored shirt for that matter (besides black, obvs.). 

So how do I feel overall about this foundation? Meh. The color match is good, but it doesn't seem to be versatile in that the only way I can make this look good is by damp sponge. I don't absolutely hate this foundation. I can still wear it, but I'd just have to prep my skin with a good moisturizer, primer, De-Slick spray, and setting powder. What I mean is, it's "workable" for everyday use. 
If you like matte foundations and your skin is pretty good and free of dry patches, I say go for it, but don't expect this to be a miracle or HG product. 

HELLOOO~ Face of the day.

Oh well hi there everyone. So it's definitely been a while since I have updated my blog. But you know how it goes when you have work and school... -sigh- It's hard to keep up. Well it's summer now and although I have to work all the time I will still try my hardest to be consistent in posting. I honestly really enjoy blogging, but I never motivate myself enough to do it continuously. I'm trying to change that now.

Anyhow, I just wanted to start with a quick post of my face for the day. Every day I like to switch it up with what I use. I hardly ever wear the same look twice in a row.

Today for work I just wanted to sport a bronze/brown eye look that was slightly smokey, yet subtle.

The pictures make the colors look pretty neutral and a little on the cool side, but really it was much warmer looking in person. The base color is actually a warm peachy-gold color, but it looks quite nude in the photos. I even used a red eyeshadow (NYX Rust) to subtly blend the color into my skin, but I guess it's not coming across on camera. Gotta find a way around that. :/

I just paired the look with some natural looking lashes I bought from HK.
And the lipcolor I'm using is Burt's Bees lip shimmer in Nutmeg. I didn't think I'd like this tinted lip balm, but it actually is natural looking and flattering on my skin tone!

And no, I did not fill in my brows crooked--they grow differently on each side. I try my best to even them out, but it's just way more noticeable on camera. In person it isn't so bad!

But I tried to do something different by using a cream stick blusher instead of a powder. It gives a natural flush, but I usually don't use them because I'm really oily. However, this particular blush stick is like a cream-to-powder almost and dries down on my skin.

I just want to say that I have re-discovered my love of Chanel Vita Lumiere Aqua foundation. It looks so natural and blends in SO well!

I hope I am able to post more on here. As you can see, I'm getting into the swing of things here. I didn't realize how different the pictures looked on my computer screen than what I looked like in real life (color wise) so I'll definitely be working on it. :)

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Neutral Brown Eye

Oh gosh! Sorry it's been so long since I've posted. I forgot to buy batteries for my camera for a while, and once I bought them I became extremely busy. But here I am! I just wanted to share a quick photo of my current eye makeup. It's simple and neutral. Completely my style. I just paired this look with a pair of natural falsies.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Nail Color at the Moment! - e.l.f. Metal Madness

Here's a nail polish called Metal Madness I got in my recent e.l.f. haul. I love it so much for it being a $2 nail polish! It's a gunmetal grey color with glitter particles that have that rainbow-like shine. The glitter can make the surface uneven and rough, but I top all my nail polishes off with a nice, thick coat of Seche Vite, so it's all good after that! Although I do admit that I need to find a new top coat, since this one seems to make my polish shrink, as you can clearly see, making my mediocre application look even worse. This polish reached full opacity after two coats. Personally, I really like it. What do you think?